No. No. No.
I DID take the site down.
Sorry, Jack, I wish I'd been clearer. I think you misunderstood.
What happened was I made the decision to take it down AND I then took it down. I didn't totally delete it, but I took it offline.
The host then deleted it a couple months later. Possibly because of your report, possibly not. I don't think it matters anymore though.
I did take it down myself though and I'm 99% sure I never would have put it back up.
That scenereo isn't much better. It only brings this down to me and you. Did you still have access to read it when it was down and not deleted?
No. But I don't need to. I have memories, I have communication with family members, I have letters I've kept and things like that. For me, it would be a bad sign if I started re-reading over old posts from 4 years ago now. I don't need all that.
Totally different situation but, earlier this year I was helping an older relative go thru some of her stuff in her house, and came across a box of things she'd kept from when her husband died. It included things like his unfinished bar of mints and a broken watch. She didn;t need to keep holding onto everythjing like that by then. She just kept the most important things. At the time when you're emotionally completely devastated, people feel like they need to hold onto every little thing, as if they're losing part of that person when they lose anything related to them. As the time goes on and that pain eases, you can look at it more rationally and realise that those things don't actually help you remember them or keep them closer to you. Maybe some of the most important ones do, like a photo or a letter. But not every bit of junk you have.
Like I said, that isn't the same thing. But I hope it helps get across what I'm saying. I don't need zomg. I might have done a few years ago, but not anymore and i didnt do by 2010.
Anyway, I mean this. You really have no reason to feel bad. I hope this post gets across what I'm tryin to say. I didn't wanna get to personal with the family stuff and the Sophie stuff, but I'm hoping that it helps you realise I genuinely hold absolutely nothing against you and can't see any way in which you've hurt me or will hurt anyone else here