I've decided that it would be best to call it quits here.
I have a rather argumentative and combative personality, and realize that I'm just going to end up arguing with everyone pretty soon. It seems like a similar situation is about to occur here as happened to me in school. I got into fights with a few people, and pretty soon had managed to fight the whole school. Unlike school, I have the option of leaving before I make everyone dislike me.
In real life, I live in a comfortable little bubble and anyone who I dislike is quickly removed. Obviously that isn't the case here, and it seems that I'm not very good at dealing with people I dislike without fighting them.
I don't want anyone to think that anybody other than myself is responsible for the situation I am in. Fight people at the rate that I have done, and you will eventually piss off everyone. I am fully responsible for this.
A while back, I could say that I liked virtually everyone on the site, and it was great. The amount of people I dislike is now growing, and I would imagine that the amount of people who dislike me is growing. This is not a situation that is likely to end well for me.
When I joined the site, it was recommended to me by my cousin as a way of dealing with my social anxiety. Sadly it has not helped that, but has certainly helped sharpen my tongue, and for that, I am very grateful.
Also, when I first joined, I was living in a new country with my cousin as the only similar aged company, and he was, at the time, in a drug induced stupor. This place was a great help, and somewhere to get away from the issues that affected me in real life.
Since then, my cousin has got over his drug problems, and we have been joined by his girlfriend, my little sister, and my best friend. I have also made a couple of other good friends.
Now, Instead of being a place that I can escape my real life problems, it has became a place that is creating real life problems. My friends are getting more and more pissed off at me for putting this place above socializing with them. It's pissing them off that we'll be sitting in the house drinking, and I'll be typing away on here, half-ignoring what's going on in the room. I am regularly turning down nights out to sit in and use this site.
I think that the easiest time to "kick this habit" is now, when I'm obviously pretty fed up with things. If I tried when I was enjoying things, I wouldn't manage.
I had thought about saying goodbye to a lot of you individually, but I would only forget one or two people, so I thought I'd just say it to you all at once.
A lot of you have been great internet buds, and I will miss you. You were great when things weren't going so well in real life.
This is a great site, and one I have grown to love, and I honestly wish it all the best for the future. I'm sure it will certainly be a more harmonious place without me.
To everyone who has shown me kindness, I honestly wish you all the very best for the future. You are a great bunch of people.
I don't expect to return, but who knows what will happen in the future.
I will probably spy on you occasionally as a guest, so watch what you're saying about me
With real love.
Lorna x
