I'm just peeved about the "interference."
A) I am a recovering compulsive hoarder. I threw away 2 large dumpsters of crap after the fire. The last dumpster was filled with stuff that was thrown out because it was too damaged to be used. I thougt I had changed my ways, but the hoard was creeping back in.
B) I realize I have clutter blindness. Most of the time I don't recognize that stuff is accumulating where I dropped it.
C) I tend to be lazy, so housekeeping is not the top thing on my to do list.
D) The PR started the fire by burning some posters in her bedroom. Either because she was mad at the celebrity or she was tring to commit suicide. We heard both sides from her.
E) Sometime before the fire she had started cutting. The cutting continued off and on.
F) She took pills 3 times. I took her to the emergency room each time. The third time she was admitted for observation and her behaviour there resulted in her being hospitalized for 2 weeks.
G) She was going to therapy 3 times a week, but is down to 1 day.
H) Because of my lack of housekeeping capabilities I was reported to Adult Protective Services. As humiliating as that is, I do understand and support the need to have me monitored so that we can have a cleaner house and The PR can learn the skills she needs.
I) She started going to Magnolia Community Services three days a week at the end of July. She loves it there for the most part. But she has had some bumps. Last week she was very rude to a staff member and later that day slammed her hand on a table. She was written up for these acts. I understand and support that.
I) Last Saturday she cut herself twice, once with a knife and once with a disposable razor.
J) I got my quarterly call from the Support Coordinator and told her about the cutting. She didn't feel my theory of "benign neglect" (my phrase) is appropriate. And I sort of agree with her.
K) Yes, I'm angry, embarrassed, and some other emotions, but I do realize that this is being done for both of us and is what is needed. Just like you may not like the taste of some medicine, if the medicine works then you take it.
P.S. The PR has asked me to say HI to all of you.
