Went to the last social skills session, going to start on anxiety next week. I have genuinely learnt stuff from this social skills course, the lady really understands and teaches me new things. She was also impressed again by how much body language skills I have. But yeh, I'm not so good with conversation. I think that's just because I think literally more than anything.
I told her it was way easier to learn body language because it's visual, whereas language uses a different part of the brain, like some people can't do maths, language was never my strong point. I was diagnosed with Semantic Pragmatic Disorder as a kid, along with a three year language delay. Then throughout school because I could read aloud and spell more advanced for my age, it was assumed I was being lazy when I couldn't understand what I was reading. It also never occured to me that writing stuff down from the blackboard was supposed to be how you took in information. I would just look and copy and take none of it in.
But yeh, I also told the lady before that I've even worked out body language gestures on my own without reading books, because I replay conversations like videos over and over again in my head, remembering all the gestures and the tone of voice, and analyze the conversations and what happened, context etc. She said it must've been great to have photographic memory, but then I corrected her saying I didn't have photographic memory, and that I was very visual and remembered visual things far, far more than language, like a film playing in my head. I remember conversations word for word for about a day or so afterwards, but then I tend to forget, unless it was an important event to me.
After I saw her, I saw my social worker, who suggested that the reason for my OCD while using the bathroom in the mornings (and arguing with nan about it) was to do with my resentment of my nan favouriting my sister. Oh dear.
