Damn.
I am, though. And I am already opioid tolerant. I was originally just on codeine/dihydrocodeine, but I've been on oxycontin and oxynorm (instant release oxycodone) for years. The amount of pods it would take to kill me off...I'd probably vomit myself to the point of fatal dehydration before I could consume enough, with my opioid tolerance, before I could die. I doubt very much I COULD actually even commit suicide with the buggers, if I so desired (and don't worry, I have no such intent whatsoever)
I'm pretty used to poppy pods, grow them every year. I usually brew them into tea, but I think maybe I shall have to apply my lab skills and see if I can't precipitate the morphine (&associated minor alkaloids of course). First few handfuls of course, will be made into that godsawful tea, as all I've had today is a couple of bottles of codeine syrup. I hate being opioid dependent, but I'm faced with the choice of either that, and daily dosing of strong opioids, or walk. Even then, its with a cane. Just turned 26, I shouldn't HAVE to use help to walk, but thats how its gone, I'm stuck with it. Docs here are fucking stingy bastards with painkillers. One has to be dying of cancer or something similar to get IV morphine, or something similarly decent...So I have to source my own. I do get oxycontin, but 80mg/d isn't even close to enough.