^^^
I'd make a complaint about it but the second partner is a apathetic dick (unless it involves his staff who work directly with him), and the third one is a sexist pig with a history of sexually harrassing women in the past.
I can't interpret what's going on properly. I can hardly communicate on the same page with him anymore, even about work. All I know is that it, and other off comments designed to gaslight, make me awkward and ashamed, have been happening for a while. He would play head games even more if I tried to do anything about it. I need to gear myself up for the trauma of trying to leave.
I was being gaslighted for 3 years, and I didn't want anything more to do with it... I understand the lies and the mental manipulation... I just hate that people do this kind of stuff to others.
The one thing that was happening was the mixed signals and the teasing, and making me look like I was the one hurting people... (I'm not going to drone on about it.... but you understand the situation better than anyone in my life that is obviously "Too Normal and boring for their own good")
Being misunderstood sucks... but it will get better in the long run, I'm almost positive it will.
If both of us can survive the final months of this year intact, then we got this.... right?