Got home about three hours ago, rented a car. Weather sucks. I missed the record breaking cold, but the roads are totally crap from a few inches of snow overnight. To Cold for the salt and chemicals to do much.
Whirlwind trip again.
Kind of a sort of balance. I did two trips to Texas in one month - never happened since I was in the music business many years ago.
First trip at the beginning of the month to attend a long known friend's funeral and second trip at the end of the month to attend a new family branch's christening of a new granddaughter (step? half? I do not know. They all called me her grandfather, so there I am).
Total grandfather. You are her father's father, after all. Even when you did not know for over thirty years.
Thank you. That is kind of how it felt.
This is a bit new to me. I might need a bit of adjustment time.
Take all the time you need, DD. It's a big deal. But I do find it amazing how the cycle of life is showing you its continuance in Texas especially, where a life ended and another began and both being important to you.
That is where I was going with the "balance" comment and how what goes around comes back around again.
But my time is up. This has already happened and what ever times any more of all this takes is within me. I feel both very strong and yet helpless at the same time.
I would like to say I am ready and most of me is ready but there are parts of me which still want to cringe in a cave somewhere and not look out.
The strong parts made me called to let them know I made my flight OK.
As far as the weak parts, they seem to run from my efforts to even understand them.
"Is she gone yet?"