I'll leave when I get some mental help. But first, I've got to wait for my packages to come in.
Because like the Mizark bitch I am, I wasted money on more shit that I'll never use. 
You aren't going anywhere. You never intended to go anywhere. Your excuses for not following through like a man are weak and pathetic, just like we have all come to expect, and just like we all know you really are inside. Do you really think that there is anyone left on this board who still likes you? That can still stand you? Sure, there are the female members you mentioned who will say nice things to you because they feel sorry for you, but that isn't the same thing now, is it?
When you look at yourself in the mirror do you want to punch it, or do you want to cry?
Do you really even think you are worth helping? Don't you think that whatever tax dollars that would be spent on (your imaginary) commitment could be better spent on important things, like repainting curbs or giving the guy that scrapes dead animals off the street a second shovel?
Run along little Penty. Go on now. Take your whiny little bitchass down the street. Buh bye.
"Is she gone yet?"