it's not physical energy, it's... mental...or spiritual, or emotional energy. i just am so done with any drama in my life that i can avoid. a lot of it has just oozed out of me. OCD is still very tough, and self loathing and regrets. that's all that i can handle, and that barely. i'm pretty focused on seeing the good in what i can, it's a much happier existence that way. i used to be so depressed and nihilistic, because i was afraid there was no meaning to life, that there was no afterlife, but that changed for me and changed my whole outlook. it wasn't one of those religion saves things, i just got to know what i needed to know, because i finally was in so much pain and rage that i demanded it, instead of asking.
i dunno if that makes any sense to you, i'm pretty scattered.