I might come up with something later. I used to waste time kicking myself in the ass for dumb, and occasionally mean, shit when I was younger. Now I can't even stand the idea of getting together with my old crowd from my teens and 20s even though they would like to see me from what I have heard. Part of this attitude springs from me having none of the things associated with social success, my retardation is too subtle for them to put a finger on.