I feel like I'm getting bullied out of here. Like I just don't belong here. I don't seem to belong anywhere. I really fucking hate that.
OK here it is laid out for you you get on nice with people and they are "generally nice" back.
I don't mind jumping in to help out undeserved bullying. At the same time you tend to at times whinge shit loads which I won't defend or you in an attention campaign start talking bullshit to all and sundry and get rightly slapped.
Now each of these occasions is remembered and anyone on the receiving end of it is going to keep checks on this and mark it mentally down for the next occasion to slap you.
This is not a tea party but it is a good forum.
Consider how you were initially here. Consider that period (short that it was) where people were actually saying you had improved your quality and even started giving you positive karma.
Join the dots dude.