I can’t recognize myself, I used to be a guy with lots of plans for the future, I was happy and carefree and enjoyed videogames, movies etc., but now every day is a struggle, I think I’ve been damaged, maybe I shouldn’t follow Sol around?
I completely ignored the warning at I2’s frontpage, I just wanted to see Sol, so I followed him from Wrongplanet to I2, and I became spellbound by what he wrote here, has it damaged me?
I think it has permanently damaged my views on both humans and society, both online and offline (I haven’t just copied online personalities, I’ve copied them IRL too, an d It’s all my own fault, I chose to follow Sol around, not him).
Was I really too young to go here?
Was it a mistake to do what I did?
Had I entered WP a few months after Sol, I’m sure I wouldn’t have met him, and when I told an old man about this from WP, he said that he wasn’t “too sure if he should feel sorry for or be disgusted by me”, what do you think?.
I've learned a lot from him though, I used to be quite different before well over 1-2 years ago than I am now, but I thank him for it, I think he'd be the only person alive to be able to change me that way, although it was a bit extreme in my case, I wasn't like The P or whatever who copies personalities online but not IRL, I'm like this online and offline.
I don't know what my real problem is, all the other aspies said that I was "a selfish evil little jerk", but you can't call me that.