I just don't get it. I feel like I can't fit into an autism community. What's even worse, is that most aspie forums are small and stuck in some kind of growth rut, except for WP, but that's not for anyone who's actually autistic. I can't even communicate properly with folks calling themselves autistics, let alone communicate with NT's. It just makes me mad that instead of being one of them "cool" aspies online, I have become a RETARDED MANCHILD!!!
I am not the kind of person who wants to take something from someone who is unwilling to give it to me. But I am getting sick and tired of hearing about these fucking LUCKY aspies who has good parents, good family, good friends who becomes successful in life and gets everything they want (and then complains about NOT getting some stupid thing they wanted) while I barely scrape by in a crappy apartment, living on an SSI check and food stamps, no car... I'm not fucking emo. I'm not some rich kid who complains about not getting that hot girl or something. I fucking HATE emos! I'm not even as emotional IRL as I appear to be online. The last time I actually shed tears was 2-3 years ago.
I could just thrust my fist through a window right now... Fucking morons think they have "problems"... Can get a fucking life! I wish I could come into their houses and beat the shit out of them, and jack their stuff. Then they would have a REAL FUCKING PROBLEM! Shitheads! And maybe find and rape that "cute little aspie girl" they managed to find!
Tell me that I am going to Hell? YOU MOTHERFUCKERS, I AM HELL!!!
I'm sorry you feel that way, and I'm sorry your life sucks at the moment. I do hope you can find a way to find some happiness in your life. I wish I knew of some good advice to give you, but you're probably the only person with any chance of fixing the things in your life that are broken
I'd say that the main reason you struggle to fit into te autism community is that you've been pretty nasty to a lot of the people, and that kind of makes them justified in being nasty to you. For example, I never knew anything about you untill you accused my dad of sexually abusing me, you continually accused me of having an incestuos relationship with my cousin, and you kept criticizing my sexuality. Unlike you, I didn't get butthurt by any of that, and I didn't take offence either. However, in my opinion it does give me the right to tease you back, as the things you said to me were pretty nasty.
It's not possible to be as nasty to people as you've been, and expect people to be nice to you and not be nasty to you. If you want people to be nice to you, you're going to have to be nice to others.
I would advise, if you want to change peoples attitude towards you, then you're going to have to take the teasing that you do deserve for your behaviour, with good humour and humility, and without retaliating or appearing butthurt by it. If you're continually nice to people, then most people will eventually tire of teasing you. You're always saying you're a man. This is your chance to prove it and start acting like one.
If you get your kicks from trying and failing to flame people on the internet, you have no right to expect people to be sensitive towards you.