I just don't get it. I feel like I can't fit into an autism community. What's even worse, is that most aspie forums are small and stuck in some kind of growth rut, except for WP, but that's not for anyone who's actually autistic. I can't even communicate properly with folks calling themselves autistics, let alone communicate with NT's. It just makes me mad that instead of being one of them "cool" aspies online, I have become a RETARDED MANCHILD!!!
I am not the kind of person who wants to take something from someone who is unwilling to give it to me. But I am getting sick and tired of hearing about these fucking LUCKY aspies who has good parents, good family, good friends who becomes successful in life and gets everything they want (and then complains about NOT getting some stupid thing they wanted) while I barely scrape by in a crappy apartment, living on an SSI check and food stamps, no car... I'm not fucking emo. I'm not some rich kid who complains about not getting that hot girl or something. I fucking HATE emos! I'm not even as emotional IRL as I appear to be online. The last time I actually shed tears was 2-3 years ago.
I could just thrust my fist through a window right now... Fucking morons think they have "problems"... Can get a fucking life! I wish I could come into their houses and beat the shit out of them, and jack their stuff. Then they would have a REAL FUCKING PROBLEM! Shitheads! And maybe find and rape that "cute little aspie girl" they managed to find!
Tell me that I am going to Hell? YOU MOTHERFUCKERS, I AM HELL!!!