I was beaten with instruments, starved and my mother allowed her men to use me openly, in front of my entire family. I was deprived of all of my early education because of these activities and am completely self taught. I have some college but have had a lot of social problems due to the autism and emotional problems due to the abuse. I wasn't able to talk well, cry out in pain when I was being hurt or speak up to get help the help I needed. I still have a lot of trouble in this area. Despite what happened to me, I've been able to do well for myself.