If you were asking a genuine question, I could offer a genuine answer. That isn't what I have been getting. This is a site for bullies and abusers and anyone I guess who enjoys being around them. Though it is familiar to me, I don't enjoy being around it. I don't think you have autism either. You are more likely a sadistic sociopath or psychopath and the "pro's" got it wrong in your case. And there are too many out there like you. You are "low" and I'm sure that pushes buttons for you.