I've tried it, didn't help much, was put on it for a while after I half fell/half jumped off a railway bridge. Got chased by a massive pack of pikey vermin that came suddenly steaming out of a bar I was headed for, looking for the first person in sight to...well..probably beat the snot out of.
So I legged it, and hopped over what I THOUGHT was a wall. Only it wasn't. It was a railway bridge with a 30 foot drop into a bloody great bramble patch on the other side.
NOT a fun experience I dare say.
Oddly...I only took one of my oxycontin today. I should take two, but I haven't noticed any sign of withdrawal even though I popped my first one at something like 8am, its nearly 12 PM. Although my leg and ankle are hurting pretty badly, so I think I'll crush one up and..err...plug it
Just took my OC, and 0.5mg of clonidine (adrenal blocker of sorts) with it. That should be a lot better after it kicks in
And I think I'm going to take a couple of my old baclofen rx. Its years old, but still nothing wrong with it. Its a muscle relaxant, I kept my old rx, and added my former housemate's rx that was left behind when I kicked her to the curb and told her never fucking come back. Got hundreds of baclofen pills still, so I've been taking them to help deal with the constant cramp I have in my calf. Bloody constant it is, never just fucks off for a few hours and leaves me alone.
Gah..I could, for once, do with a stimulant to help me keep awake all night, I need to study the highway code as much as possible, in preparation for my driving lesson tomorrow. Switching from a manual to an automatic for my lessons. Instructor thinks its better, as all he had to go on, was my first lesson, which was JUST after coming out of hospital twice after those damn myoclonic episodes. Massively overloaded, had no meds for days (and did they help with that? buggery did they while I was in there, just gave me an oxy script when I actually LEFT the place!
My motor coordination was absolutely shot to shit, was recovering from such a huge overload. Hospitals always do that, but after 2 seizures, my brain felt like it had been kept in a cement mixer full of REALLY pissed off kraits for a week. Add that to my knee constantly collapsing, and one gets the absolute worst possible time ever to have a first driving lesson.
Switching to an automatic will give me one less thing to worry about, changing gear is less to think about, easier to concentrate on getting a decent pedestrian body count that way:D
No uppers available though at the moment apart from caffeine which doesn't agree too well. The pigs still have some of my lab supplies, along with my guns at the moment, although I will get them back, from when they raided the place on a fishing expedition with a blatantly illegal warrant, and there is 100mg of desoxypipradrol in there, in a small bottle of 1mg/1ml solution dissolved in 35% ethanol (I think thats the EtOH concentration anyhow).
It would be JUST what I need right now, a long acting (in the case of desoxy, a VERY long acting), quite selective dopamine reuptake inhibitor, it does have some noradrenergic action, but IIRC the Ki (measure of binding affinity) for the dopamine transporter is twice as low (lower number for a Ki value means tighter binding for the target) at DAT as it is for NET (noradrenaline transporter). Something like 0.25mg of desoxy would be perfect for hyperfocussed studying.
As it is, I think I will brew a jug of poppy pod tea, I find that pretty stimulating, but not at all rough like classical uppers are, just helps me focus my attention, and will help with my bad leg to boot. If I can work up the guts to overcome that filthy taste and the 'Oh my bloody christ' stench that goes with it. My stomach wants to heave just thinking about it.
Got a nice batch of pods that have been drying for a week or so. Fresh ones, straight from the plant, are the most disgusting, fully dried poppy straw actually doesn't taste of much at all...just sort of musty, slightly like dried hay, although bitter due to the alkaloid content, which has to be covered up with lots and lots of sugar.
