A good question and I will give you a sensible answer.
I am dyslexic. Part of me like Autism. I love reading and writing, always have. At school I did poorly. My parents basically just after too many nights and for too long labouring and getting embarrassed and frustrated at my own ineptitude at reading aloud just used to sign the reading books as read. My teachers used to fill my pages with unslightly underscores and read circles and my writing got smaller and smaller until they could barely read the writing little lone the spelling errors and it is a legacy I have kept to this day.
That said I persevered. I took a nightfill job in my later years and this paid for two tutors and as a result I passed (though not well) and came out of school barely literate. I joined the workforce and did nightschool part time for a few years to improve my writing. Pressure was off and it basically taught me to read and write better. The prep course for Uni resulted in me getting accepted into Uni.
I figured that writing was never going to be easy and no one else was going to help so I may as well do as best I could. It was not the writing or reading that was the problem. I do enjoy it as I say, it was me.
Most shit like this I push myself at and am a hard taskmaster. My job at the moment is in sales on the phone. Social skills and empathy and understanding the customer's mindset? Yeah there is a big part in this and it is difficult as all hell. It is harder for me and I take shorter breaks and work longer hours than the others and they laugh about it all. I need to do it in order to manage my job though. I am doing better than most if not all there and being very noticed by the upper echelons. It is not because I am better just because I work my arse off.
I have a presentation to do on Friday in front of an audience. Scares shit out of me. Then again most shit I have to do at work and what not does. It is just something that I have to do in order to get on in life. No one is going to make my sales for me or get me moved up the ladder there and that is the way I will be able to keep food on the table, roof over my head and provide a role model for my kids of a good Dad.
Might sound all a bit too stressful. How do I manage my stress? I don't. I have heart attacks
