Attempting not to harm anything and looking for a place to explode over the fact that I just froze up and blanked on an important phone interview. This is the second one since I left my last job, it's for a real, full-time, six month project, and I may have fucked it up by acting like a neurotic spaz.
And people wonder why I'm a fucking control freak. Because when I slip, shit like this drags me down from jobs I know I'd be damn good at, if I could only get past the talking and get a chance. I am not the terrified child such situations tend to drag out of some godforsaken corner of my psyche.
(Please don't tell me to take it easy.)