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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6330 on: May 03, 2008, 03:33:25 PM »
what stops me from crying, or what stops me from getting therapy?

The former. I thought the latter was pretty much explained by the lack of collective brainpower among humankind.

:laugh:  i like the cut of your jib, woman.  ;)

however, if i knew precisely what stops me from crying, i wouldn't need the therapy.  :P  i suspect it's  combination of things: the fact that i had emotional overload a few years back, and shut down; the fact that i have no-one to talk to, face-to-face in real life; the fact that my great therapist stopped practising two years ago (which is when the eczema started getting really bad); the fact that i rarely interact with anyone i really trust.  etc., etc.  if i knew for sure, as i said, i'd be on the case like a shot.

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6331 on: May 03, 2008, 04:04:19 PM »
however, if i knew precisely what stops me from crying, i wouldn't need the therapy.  :P 

 :laugh: Fair point.

i suspect it's  combination of things: the fact that i had emotional overload a few years back, and shut down; the fact that i have no-one to talk to, face-to-face in real life; the fact that my great therapist stopped practising two years ago (which is when the eczema started getting really bad); the fact that i rarely interact with anyone i really trust.  etc., etc.  if i knew for sure, as i said, i'd be on the case like a shot.

Well, I'm trying to dowse in a desert here, but if I had to take a stab (how's that for mixed metaphors?  *cringe* ), I'd say reinforce yourself to operate among the untrustworthy and then start playing with hurt. But you already do that, so there must be some reason it's not working fast enough. If it were me, it would be thinking I wasn't allowed; don't know what it is on your end.
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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6332 on: May 03, 2008, 04:17:10 PM »
Waiting for my cheese cake that my wife's friend is bring over
"Eat it up.  Wear it out.  Make it do or do without." 

'People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.'
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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6333 on: May 03, 2008, 06:03:22 PM »
Winding down after some serious scripting.
"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6334 on: May 03, 2008, 06:13:27 PM »
Fractals.
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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6335 on: May 04, 2008, 02:26:24 AM »
however, if i knew precisely what stops me from crying, i wouldn't need the therapy.  :P 

 :laugh: Fair point.

i suspect it's  combination of things: the fact that i had emotional overload a few years back, and shut down; the fact that i have no-one to talk to, face-to-face in real life; the fact that my great therapist stopped practising two years ago (which is when the eczema started getting really bad); the fact that i rarely interact with anyone i really trust.  etc., etc.  if i knew for sure, as i said, i'd be on the case like a shot.

Well, I'm trying to dowse in a desert here, but if I had to take a stab (how's that for mixed metaphors?  *cringe* ), I'd say reinforce yourself to operate among the untrustworthy and then start playing with hurt. But you already do that, so there must be some reason it's not working fast enough. If it were me, it would be thinking I wasn't allowed; don't know what it is on your end.

good thinking, all of it.  i think one of the difficulties is that i'm too good at reinforcing myself, as it were, and so it's so much easier for me to shut off the nasty emotional stuff, rather than expressing it.  it's almost automatic for me to put a lid on difficult emotions, and i need to learn how not to do that.  trouble is, my intellectual side is far more developed than my emotional side, amazingly enough.  :yikes: ;)

i can do it, with support, but i need someone else there, as i'm crap at externalising stuff - i spend most of my time on my own, and so even speaking out loud isn't something i do every day.

and yet i'm so good at doing this for other people.  bloody ridiculous, but then it's so common that physicians can't heal themselves, and all that.  i need a "me".  ::)

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6336 on: May 04, 2008, 04:20:07 AM »
Thinking about what to do next.
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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6337 on: May 04, 2008, 06:09:00 AM »
Thinking about what to do next.

me?   :eyelash:

i'm crocheting a scarf as a pressie for one of my PhD supervisors, and listening to a bizarre langugae course - i'm learning all sorts of phrases, but as i haven't got the text yet, i have no fucking idea what i'm saying!  :laugh:

i'm sure one of them is "my nipples explode with delight".

:LMAO:

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6338 on: May 04, 2008, 06:28:57 AM »
Resting after going curbside shopping :laugh:
"Eat it up.  Wear it out.  Make it do or do without." 

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6339 on: May 04, 2008, 06:45:37 AM »
oooh, get anything good?  (better check that thread, i s'pose).

just trying to get myself off this chair and out for a walk/shop.   :-\

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6340 on: May 04, 2008, 02:24:39 PM »
Thinking about what to do next.

me?   :eyelash:

OK.

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i'm crocheting a scarf as a pressie for one of my PhD supervisors, and listening to a bizarre langugae course - i'm learning all sorts of phrases, but as i haven't got the text yet, i have no fucking idea what i'm saying!  :laugh:

i'm sure one of them is "my nipples explode with delight".

:LMAO:

Pretty sure it's not one of the phrases, actually. :rofl:
"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6341 on: May 04, 2008, 02:28:46 PM »
Thinking about what to do next.

me?   :eyelash:

OK.

/starts getting into training.

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i'm crocheting a scarf as a pressie for one of my PhD supervisors, and listening to a bizarre langugae course - i'm learning all sorts of phrases, but as i haven't got the text yet, i have no fucking idea what i'm saying!  :laugh:

i'm sure one of them is "my nipples explode with delight".

:LMAO:

Pretty sure it's not one of the phrases, actually. :rofl:

shame.  :(

i gave up on the scarf, btw - fucking fuzzy yarn drove me insane.  so now i'm crocheting some bookmarks, really pretty ones, with beads and everything.  thought it was appropriate, as she's a writer.  ;D

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6342 on: May 04, 2008, 02:35:31 PM »
Doing as little as possible. What I should be doing is sleeping--I need to get up very early tomorrow, to catch a train.
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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6343 on: May 04, 2008, 02:37:39 PM »
Doing as little as possible. What I should be doing is sleeping--I need to get up very early tomorrow, to catch a train.

go to bed.  :hug:

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Re: What are You doing right now?
« Reply #6344 on: May 04, 2008, 02:38:50 PM »
Doing as little as possible. What I should be doing is sleeping--I need to get up very early tomorrow, to catch a train.

go to bed.  :hug:

In a while. :hug:
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