I had an interesting experience today.
I heard Pearl Jam's new song "The Fixer" last week, and I really like it. It has become one of my favorites, not only for the rhythm and melody, but also for the lyrics.
When somethings dark, let me shed a little light on it
When somethings cold, let me put a little fire on it
If somethings old, I wanna put a bit of shine on it
When somethings gone, I wanna fight to get it back again
fight to get it back again
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
When somethings broke, I wanna put a bit of fixin on it
When somethings bored, I wanna put a little exciting on it
If somethings low, I wanna put a little high on it
When somethings lost, I wanna fight to get it back again
fight to get it back again
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
When signals cross, I wanna put a little straight on it
If there's no love, I wanna try to love again
I’ll say your prayers, I’ll take your side
I'll find us a way to make light
I'll dig your grave, we'll dance and sing
What's saved could be one last lifetime
hey, hey, hey
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, fight to get it back again
fight to get it back again, yeah, yeah, yeah
fight to get it back again, yeah, yeah, yeah
I get a call from an ex girlfriend out of the blue today. She asks me if I had heard the new Pearl Jam song - Yes, I have heard it. Why?
She says when she heard it, she thought of me. She said she had never seen anyone with such resilience. She said she saw me come through in situations where she would have given up.
This is a person who knew me for ten years. She saw the worst of me, and, apparently without my realizing, the best of me.
While I was frustrated with how many times I'd fallen, she was admiring how many times I had gotten back up.
The whole time I thought she saw me as broken, she saw me as "the fixer".