I once got a letter from the police, after having written things on the net, I ignored their call and a few months later a police car drove up and knocked on my door. I was traumatized by that, haven't recovered.
1. What did you write?
2. Just knocked?
They came to take me downtown to the station because I skipped a hearing earlier.
The things I wrote was some nasty stuff about a salsa dancing social worker who had a fetish for sleeping with black men. She used her position within the social security to pressure the police even though they didn't have real evidence. They did it for her. My other "crimes" such as writing hatred on the net was also something she reported but they didn't even have an IP linking it to me, and some things were even prescribated. Annoys me, they still had to question me.
In my childhood, I was hunted down by a police hound once and several times driven to child psychiatry as soon as there was some trouble at home. My alcoholic and personality disorder suffering parents blamed it all on my AS and winded me up with threats, then they called the police. When I was between 13-16 they made a habit of calling the police as soon as they were angry with me. I was locked up for two weeks and medicated with hibernal, became severely depressed and stopped eating while in psychiatry care. I was eating just fine when not locked up. The only thing I can imagine which would have been worse is being tazed. I don't think I could ever recover from something like that.
I sometimes still have this dream that I'm about to go out traveling, and some airport staff tells me in soft voices as if I was retarded or 5 years old that "no, here, come this way" and shows me to a side door. When I open the door there's an ambulance rigged up like a lethal injection chamber with strapping belts etc and people dressed in white. There's also a doctor who's wearing a full covering mask, telling me in a soft and patronizing voice "this is where you belong. We're going to help you".
It's memories from my childhood I can't get rid of.