When your definition of idiot even includes yourself, then there's a problem.
I just feel nothing for humanity.
I got my social training growing up from video games. I lived inside of japanese roleplaying games and got messed up. It was just a few years ago, after having had a social life, been out dancing, partying, trying to get through school etc that I realized my entire social life since the day I was born was imagination, based on retreating into the world of games, cheap books etc...
My only motivation to live is to learn japanese perfectly because, my only reason to live while growing up was japanese games. I don't really care about much anymore, except for looking good and having nice clothes.