So what marketable skills do you have?
Me? I dunno, I'm talented but not a specialized field expert in anything. I wish I had more specific competence but I can't get it because of:
1. Lack of interest/need for a special interest
2. The social structure of schools and society
3. The fact I have to study 90% subjects I'm not interested in to even get into a real school
4. Economic reasons, I would become poorer while educating myself.
I don't give piss for a general education in history, politics and things like that. That's something you learn on your spare time. Real education doesn't broaden your world view, it just adds narrowed competence in one specific field. That's what I wish I had. I want to be an expert, it's the way of the aspie but I have unfortunately been cursed/blessed with a lack of scientifically oriented special interests and instead a wider range of talents from music/dancing to psychology. I'm versatile but not awesome and that sucks.
I want to be the guy who's only good at one thing. If I was like those shooting clay pigeons from horseback in the olympics, and just doing it flawlessly while being average or poor at everything else, I would be happy. My existential void would be filled.
The archetype I dream of becoming is the marksman who never misses his target but that's pretty much all he does. A one trick pony who's unbeatable at his own game. That is the most glorious form of aspie there is. Again, Michael Jackson, Bobby Fischer etc are prime examples. In lack of this, I act like a poser. I try to present the most brilliant, intelligent, cool and weird appearence, building an image, while really being no good at all. I hate myself deep down for not being more aspie genius. I'm like Adolf Hitler, a generalist who's moderately to quite talented in a number of fields but rather sucky at a lot and never truly educated or good in anything.
A large hinder for me would be breached if I could learn mathematics. I don't know more than basic junior school maths. Learning japanese is a childhood dream I'm close to realizing, but mathematics is a necessary skill I would need to specialize in a scientific subject but I have such a phobia for it that everytime I try to learn, I just fall flat.