hi milla.
it has been a few days. i am wondering, how have you been?
hi McFuck, yeah it has. i've been watching a lot of tv. it's 4am and i just got done with all the programs. my day starts at 2pm with Angel. then Hollyoaks at 3 or 3.30, then i try to cook real fast and then at 4.25 another Hollyoaks and then i get online for a while or watch Big Brother and then at 6.30 there's two episodes of Hollies and then there's Big Brother and a little time to be online and then i try to get some booze if i didn't get any at lunch and then there's some shows and then at 12 Nip/Tuck, 2 Weeds and 2 Star Treks. so that's how i am. i'm all chock full of tv.
i think my TV addiction is growing again, it's taking over my net addiction. i didn't see it coming.
also i think i'm becoming bulimia oriented. and i want to start smoking. the eating disorder storyline on hollyoaks makes me want to stop eating but puking seems more doable. i just miss that shit, i'm been so frickin goody goody and not done anything that self destructive, i think all those trolls want to crawl to the surface now and i so miss them. i feel so dead inside. i feel like something is about to tear open. like i'm about to give birth to something. i've been feeling like that for years now. and it never happens. i'm in stasis.
so, how are you?