yeah i do that too. though i'm not brutal but just embarassingly honest. there are things we're not supposed to say. and then my brain is muddied so i say things in a way that people don't understand and they get offended. or they are scared of my weirdness. either way it's destroyed my self image in a way and that causes self-loathing. i dunno how to fix it. i'm not saying boohoo why me, i know it was me that came here willingly and took on this person i am and made my own mistakes but there comes a point where you say enough. i'm done with making friends with people who will leave me or think i'm a freak or just by being there mirror what i think of myself when i imagine what they must be thinking of me. if it wasn't for the things i need to do in this life i'd wish to die and be born someone better.
I identify with the last sentence you wrote in this post too much it seems. I weird some people out too with my habits and interests. Definitely offend people with some of my more extreme opinions. People either think I am stuck up, an asshole, too shy, too nice or just plain strange. It all depends on how open I am with them, it can get bad for not only me but them also when they get to know me. I still fight the urge to totally give up socially and completely ostracize myself from the world. The only thing that can match my hatred of others is what I feel about myself when I really think about it.
That doesn't mean I am going to give up on meeting new people both online and in real life. You shouldn't either, you may miss out on something worthwhile. It will be difficult to maintain friendships for some, and impossible for those who never really try.
I wasn't mocking McStuff, just joking with him and I think he would undertand. Especially with the nature of his comment.
It would be nice to see when spirituality somehow connects with science. The paranormal remains so because it can't be explained and same goes for spirituality. You can't get empyrical data for true spiritual concepts, which is why they can't be proven or disproven. There are a ton of forms of spirituality out there, for all of them to be diisproved it will take quite a bit of empyrical data which will take a long ass time to collect. I highly doubt we will see it this lifetime. If science advances that quickly I would be impressed and also excited to a degree.
I really hate lying and it is hard to justify. I would only see lying as something to get me out of trouble with an authority figure like the police. Otherwise it shouldn't be necessary. I have to force myself to lie, but I have gotten better at it.