EquiisSavant, if your doctor was helping you overcome those barriers then that shows that you CAN overcome them.
Your doctor is no superman - if he could help you overcome them, then I'm sure you can find other ways to try and overcome them again, without him.
edit: and I actually mean this in a supportive way, although you will probably assume I'm just some idiot who doesn't understand your problems.
There is no one else who can help me overcome these barriers. My husband refuses to do it, help me, and my doctor know this. And there is NO one else. My doctor was making many telephone calls and personal visits to facilicate the communication for me to get referrals to other doctors and arrange their appts. The appts he did not facilicate for me did not get made so I could not get medically necessary tests and see my doctors -- like the return to sleep study, the ECHO test, and appt. in pulmonology for more inhalent. I can't use telephones or paper print, so I can't do this myself, independently. When my doctor didn't do it, facilicate communication for me, it did not get done. So if I now have NO one to do this for me, and I can't do it --- how, exactly, is it I am supposed to overcome the barriers ? I have gone 20 years not being able to overcome the same barriers to get my bar admission, my doctor was the first person in 20 years who actually said/promised he would help me. Now I am supposed to wait another 20 years -- or maybe NEVER ? My doctor was the only doctor I have been able to actually communicate with I ever had in my 53 years. And, I am supposed to magically go {{{poof}}} and overcome barriers in the figment of your imagination that in cold, hard reality, I cannot overcome ? I don't think some of you understand what "locked-in" means.
I was a childhood incest sexual abuse victim, with autism. My doctor had fiduciary duties to me, and standard of care for such a patient is under no circumstances to commit any abandonment -- he is under duty to work thru the feelings his very strong, purposeful psychiatric psychotherapy transferences and countertransferences induced. Otherwise, he causes even more fragmentation and dissociated states -- in an autism and childhood incest sexual molestation context in which disassociation is already inherent in the underlying condition. When he took on an autistic patient, he knew (and the knowledge can be imputed to him & his University) that appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues, and that treatment of such a patient is -- standard of care requires -- very long-term, years, if not a lifetime.
What his supervisors advised him to do (in addition to inhumanely leaving the foot injury untreated) was retraumatize the previous childhood incest abandonment injuries by abandoning the person who has been damaged by repeated abandonments. And one, for whom, the incest trauma was even more amplified by the fact of being autistic and locked-in. That is not only sexual harassment of an autistic woman by the doctor's supervisors who forced him off contrary to medical ethics and legal requirements for his patient's particular condition, but would be like a stroke doctor treating a stroke by recklessly inducing an unnecessary catastrophic stroke bleed into the entire brain from every major brain artery and all brain vessels at once, destroying all brain cells/tissue, killing the patient.
If my doctor is so weak sexually he can't help his patient by continuing the psychotherapy and other medical treatment, then why did he mishandle such strong transferences and countertransferences in a known autistic former childhood incest sexual abuse victim for whom HE is the only one she can actually communicate with ? And if my doctor is not weak sexually, then what is his problem with being the doctor his extremely vulnerable, autistic, locked-in, traumatized patient needs to complete her healing over the long-term as he promised her ?
