Really the important thing here is to start somewhere. Have you looked at the Open University for example?
i can't concentrate. i can't even read a book. i'm reading this dream book and i can barely do a page at a time even though it's really interesting. and that's something i picked for myself and read when i feel like it.
Maybe you could go for an audio book or something - I find them easier when I can't concentrate on stuff.
i read bits and pieces. and it's a really short book. schools and deadlines don't work for me.
Deadlines never really work for me either - but I normally find some way of getting around them. Like requesting an extension.
i spent like 4 years in high school learning nothing until i dropped out. i'm not smart like you and driven as pure snow.
I tend to take easy courses and avoid working a lot. Tbh I havent even gone to the majority of my lectures this term.
or maybe i just can't do it alone.
The amount of help you can have access to at a university is amazing, if I had needed to I could have had a salarised employee as a minder for my whole time. Seriously. But as I like my independence and can do without I haven't got one. You can get pretty much all the help you need if you apply for it.
but i have no friends to do stuff with and without friends i don't really exist. and i can't get friends because they don't deserve a shit like me. i already feel bad about my online friends.
My depressed friend says this quite often. It really is a classic sign of depression. Seriously Milla, get your mum to take you to the doctor and tell them all this. Write down everything about how you feel, live your life and so on and get an appointment. There is nothing wrong with asking for help.